Clouds of alcohol

Songs and Poetry 1990 - 2007

 

Clouds

i’ve seen people living in forbidden places
i cry every time i remember faces
pressed under glass hollow and wasted
they go down
they go down

clouds of alcohol

they call across from the other side
i want you to stop won’t you stop your slide
crucifying angles up in the sky
we fall down
we fall down

there’s is a hole in you’re soul
a hole in your soul
a hole in your soul
clouds of alcohol

you’re living in a no-go zone
in a cage newly built from your X’s bones
tears of lead and a heart of stone
you fall down
you fall down

clouds of alcohol

 

Fall

i saw you when
you were falling out
on the way down
i heard you shout
it’s never easy
but its not too hard
when you fall
sweet miss
you fall so hard

now i hear you’re looking
for some kind of sign
time has come to
keep what you find
there’ll be nothing
left for you to discard
when you fall
dear man
you fall so hard

pick up the pieces
you left behind
find someone
who’s gentle and kind
you still got a chance
when your holding a card when
you fall sweet mama
you fall so hard

the world has turned
and falls on me
i don’t get to pick
i don’t get to choose
i'm in a cell
and its got no bars
when i fell
dear mama
i fell so hard

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Living in the World

living in times of suicide intention
taking your pills for your own protection
in the crowd you’re still alone
lost some where on your way home

it’s just doesn’t seen right to me
it’s not the way it should be
i can’t stand the insanity
living in the world

living in the world
living in the world
living in the world
living in the world

living in times of dreams and delusions
hoping somehow to fund a solution
in between time marches on
look at your face wonder where it’s gone

it just doesn’t seem right to me
it’s just not the way it should be
you just lost your invincity

living in the world
living in the world
living in the world
living in the world

 

 

 

 

 

Down Side

clicking of the clock chicken of the hour
shivering and shaking like a motherless child
with a tick and a tock the moment is over
we’re all washed up in the tide

see the down side
i see the down side
see the down side
i see the down side

down child
down child

too many choices too many ways
head in the clouds feet in the grave
in broken twilight and sheets of rain
in the rain your blood runs dry

see the down side
i see the down side
see the down side
i see the down side

down child
down child

on our way through black decades
suburbs burn memory decays
blocked in boxed up and betrayed
it’s funny have you forgotten you say

see the down side
i see the down side
see the down side
i see the down side

down child
down child

 

 

 

 

 

Why

why get the feeling that you’re packing a gun
are you waiting for the time you can kill me for fun
why do i keep hoping that you’ll get your way
i remember your eyes and i hope for that day

why do i
why do i
why do i

why do i believe that your doing so well
when you’re telling everybody that your life is hell
why do i keep hoping that it will be all right
when your night is my day and your black is my white

why do i
why do i
why do i

why do i get the feeling when i see you again
that your locking all your love in the lions den
why do i keep thinking this has only begun
when i’m spilling blood and you're holding a gun

why do i
why do i
why do i

 

 

 

 

 

Apocalypse Dada

i think a long black snake
lies coiled inside your heart
i think you’re way too cold

apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada

i think that your bad dreams
grow wings fly into my dreams
i can’t control this fear

apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada

i want something outside nothing
outside nothing you want something

apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada
apocalypse dada

i want something outside meaning
outside meaning you mean nothing

 

 

 

 

 

She

where she thinks she’s going anybodies guess
in any other direction from the one that might be best
she’s possibly lost in a city where the wind blows cold and low
or returned up to the back country i really just don’t know

there’s no place without her embrace
no heart can beat in her place
i’m tortured and twisted
a broken toy
she’s gone with other boys

what’s there left an empty bed photographs and cups in boxes in the shed
she may be on some homeward road or lost her front door key
she may have changed the colour of her hair her cloths and her identity

and there’s no place without her embrace
no heart can beat in her place
i’m tortured and twisted
her broken toy
she’s gone with other boys

where she’ll be tomorrow anybodies guess
she may be under someones curse or she maybe she been blessed
she maybe frozen out so cold or somewhere warm i don’t know
if you see her tell her i miss her and love her so

no feelings shall i let escape
it’s mine now not her fate
i’m tortured and twisted
her broken toy
she’s gone with other boys

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gulf

there are ties in blood that cannot be undone
they’re starting a war that cannot be won
while children play with loaded guns
another mother grieves the loss of her son

i hear bells toll
the lonesome song
something happened
something is wrong

and i own control of everyman’s soul
i judge the space that they're allowed
i can connect with communication
i write the words that feed the nation

there is a gulf between us that can never mend
cross roads merging don’t pretend
they did it their way whatever the cost
they did it their way whatever the loss

i hear bells toll
the lonesome song
something happened
something is wrong

i own every bit of this land
everybody bows down to my command
i lose control unleash my hand
people will burn where they stand

and the forces that grew deep in the heart
crossing the border so the war can start
call the guilty prepare to die
hold me now, hold me now

i hear bells toll
the lonesome song
something happened
something is wrong

we are lost in our dreams
developing schemes
lost in our course
forgetting the sauce
we take what we can
how much can you stand
dreams are like sand
in the waste land

i hear bells toll
the lonesome song
what’s gone wrong
what’s gone wrong

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Time

behind the times
over the top
an underachiever
put on the spot

made redundant
stupid and naive
hanging from the rafters
down on my knees

courting disaster
feathered and tarred
arrested and fined
chained in the yard

too highly strung
asking too much
bought and sold
for such and such

i can’t seem to get it together
can’t get a hold on the day
there’s nothing to hold onto
and time just keeps slipping away

no i can’t seem to get it together
can’t get a hold on the day
can’t clarify the issues
time just keeps sliding away

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dark Road

as you drift through uncertainty
on that narrow road you chose
the dream of who you could have been
still cuts deep into your soul
on this dark road you chose

i remember the view the sight of you
the delicacy of your pose
can we be if we’re not free
can life be that unkind?
it’s a dark road we chose

you fell into uncertainty
just couldn’t take it i suppose
witnessing all those little things
laughing at the scene of the crime
it’s a dark road you chose

on the edge the night sky
waiting for a sign
doors that opened
slammed closed
on this dark road i chose

Neighborhood

something’s happening in the neighborhood
it’s happening at night in the neighborhood
they’re picking up people and blowing them away
we’re picking up people and blowing them away
and someone suffering in the neighborhood
feeling nothing in the neighborhood
i wanna liberate the neighborhood
snapped and cracked in the neighborhood
it’s not me in this neighborhood
it’s everybody else in the neighborhood
cause people ain’t doing what they should
no people ain’t doing what they should
so i’m taking them with me the whole neighborhood
i’m taking them with me the whole neighborhood
i’m taking them with me the whole neighborhood
yes i’m taking them with me the whole neighborhood

 

 

 

 

 

Love

i’m riding second to the minute and time just flies
in the centre of the world my love took sick and died
it’s like i said when i said that time just dies
when your riding on the minute the seconds lie

i love the life i live
the life i love
i love the life i live
the life i love

i caught a glimpse of you when you was outside
and all the stories i heard could not be deigned
you did what you did and you did the time
and you did the years as mine flew bye

do you love the life you lived
the life you loved
do you love the live i lived

the life i loved

and do i love the you lived
and do you love the you lived
and do you love the I’ve lived

the life you loved

i love the life i live
the life i live
i love the life i live
the life i live
i live the live
i live

 

 

 

 

 

Victim

staring out through broken glass
across these dead men’s souls
the sky is black the sun can’t shine
i hear death bells toll

give me something clear and true
that does not crack or break
make it real so i can feel
that you can give as well as take

and i know you stole your lucky charm
i know you bought your golden arm
and its too late for this victim of fate

i crave and craved so much for you
you never realized it’s true
everything i ever got
i gave to you, i gave to you

you’re a stranger someone i knew
i can’t believe you were ever true
there was no time no warning sign
only me and you, only me and you

and i know you stole your lucky charm
i know you bought your golden arm
and it’s too late, victim of fate

and you can’t change how you behave
can’t even cross the street
sitting staring at the clock
and see the hands all meet, the hands all meet

 

 

 

 

 

 

Memories

well there’s a lot
that i’ve forgot
but there’s something that i’ve not
no place to hide these tears i’ve cried
all for you from out of me

memory
duplicity
memory

only one thing
can’t remember what
always something i’ve forgot
got a feeling don’t know why
can’t release what’s inside

memory
misery
memory

always right never wrong you got the sight but your eyes are gone

memory
dulplicity
memory

i remember a darkened street
no protection the weather bleak
cresent moon shines through the trees
you an me and memories

memory
duplicity
misery

 

 

 

 

 

Fun

i hear you been converted
and forgotten all your past
guess you got what you wanted
and your happy now at last

you’re happy now at last
you’re happy now at last

so you’ve been subverted
by some preachers twisted tongue
made you feel so happy
and you’re having fun

see you’re having fun
see you’re having fun

i think we are
yes i think we really are
i know we are
i know we really are

happy now at last
happy now at last
happy now at last
happy now at last

i see your been perverted
and your hunkered down
and the weight of failure
made you kiss the ground

made you kiss the ground
made you kiss the ground

see you’re having fun
see you’re having fun
see you’re having fun
you’re happy now at last
you’re happy now at last
you’re happy now at last

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

You

i hear you're someone special
somewhere in town
walk as though walking
on hallowed ground
walk as though walking
on hallow ground

you wanna be someone important
opinion at hand
giving a judgment
without taking a stand
giving a judgment
without taking a stand

 

you keep building it up
i keep tearing it down
you’re laying foundations
on unsound ground

 

i don’t need your negative judgment
on what i lack
i can’t respond to
that kind of attack
i can’t respond to
that kind of attack

you ain’t worth nothing
nothing to yourself
and you ain’t worth nothing
to anybody else
you ain’t worth nothing
to anybody else

 

you keep building it up
i keep tearing it down
you're laying foundations
on unsound ground

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Loser

pick a card they told me
pick it if you can
it may change the life you live
i drew the losing hand

pick again i heard them say
your luck it might just change
take a chance just like romance
but i lost and i lost again

oh take a stand with us they say
and we will guide your hand
i tried again bad luck to mend
but i lost as only losers can

try again for the odds are yours
and you can easily win
but of the two for me to chose
the winner was still with them

pick a card they told me
pick it if you can
it may change the life you live
i drew the losing hand

 

 

 

Days of Wine and Roses

this planet of ours is hopelessly divided
every body seems to just want more
by adding up the cost of our survival
its easy to see we’re on the killing floor

but don’t worry sweet baby
the suns still gonna shine
it is still the days of wine
and roses

the system is obviously overloaded
people can’t seem to take the strain
by adding up the cost of our survival
we’ll be taking it all down the drain

but don’t you worry baby
the suns still gonna shine
it is still the days of wine
and roses

the world is spinning round and round in circles
and we all make up the swelling tide
by adding up the cost of our survival
we is on a suicide ride

but don’t you worry sweet baby
the suns still gonna shine
it is still the days of wine
and roses
roses
and roses
roses

 

 

 

 

 

Time

oh how i remember the time
you were young and i was too
and we thought life would go on
forever long but no
the days soon lose their momentum
the doubt and the sun blotted out
you got the thorn instead of the rose
so baby we’re going down
down below the ground
we’re not coming up for any air
we’re staying down under there
do you remember the hours
staring into the stars
feeling infuriated at the
inconsequentiality of everything
and you looked into the field of the sky
and shadows came creeping up behind you
and you couldn’t even breath
so baby we’re going down
down below the ground
we’re not coming up for any air
that is all that is left for us now
come on the road is tough, the road is rough
and there is no escaping the shit surrounding us
i remember a time the room it stank of sweat
the trees were moving past the blinds
and a cloud passed over the sun.
so baby we’re going down
down below the ground
we’re not coming up for any air
we’re stayig down under there

 

 

 

 

 

Wake up

i tried to shake you
but couldn’t wake you
because you was under some bodies spell

so i wrote a letter
hope you feel better
and don’t forget to get well

because these are the days of growth and decay
and change in every way
and barring invasion, confrontation, evasion
we’ll see a brand new day

so i’ll wait to you wake
and maybe daybreak
will open some new gate for you

come rain or hail stone
i’ll never stray from
whatever i did promise you

because these are the days of growth and decay
and change in every way
barring persuasion, rejection, enslaving
we’ll see another day

 

 

 

 

 

Hate

you don’t have to be so mean
i didn’t try to steal your scene
or take a drink from that cup you hold
steal your purse or steal your gold
steal your baby, your soul or your health

you only hate in me what you hate in yourself

you don’t have to turn the books
i know where you been i know that look
i never looked up your address
or stole your heart so i don’t have to confess
to that book you keep on your apon shelf

you only hate in me what you hate in yourself

you don’t have to look so pleased
i ain’t gonna go i ain’t gonna leave
or follow you down, where you been
or applaud your see saw song
laughed at you jokes, toasted your health

you only hate in me what you hate in yourself

you don’t have to say goodbye
you come and go just like the tide
i never got caught up in you net
i ain’t a fool and i don’t forget
if it ain’t me its somebody else

you only hate in me what you hate in yourself

 

 

 

 

 

Tell me

tell me where i’m heading
tell me who i am
why i roam so far from home
in this forsaken land
tell me is it you
that i’m searching for
i’ve seen you eyes
the way the shine
behind the security door
but i’ve seen so many people
as they hurry by
flicking in the shadows
between concrete and sky
i asked too many questions
and they haven’t got the time
everyone’s a victim
searching for a crime
i run too many red lights
forgot to read the signs
flashing red in warning
as if i’m driving blind
please tell me where i’m going
tell me where i am
i’ve got a map
but it’s not exact
i’m going round and round
i’m going round and round

 

 

 

 

 

Unforgiven

taking time to understand
the changes that keep coming
hoping now for something soon
to break the luck i’m having
taking time making a sign
to prove that i’m still living
i’m broken down but will try somehow
to break the bounds around me

working overtime to repeal my time
but results are not forthcoming
hanging on the line, wasting time
don’t wanna be forgiven

i’m wasting time making some kind
of conversation with you
its over time to realize
you don’t want to be forgiven
wasting time working overtime
to reveal what’s left of mine
wasting time walking the line
don’t wanna be forgiven

 

 

 

 

 

Burn

you took an unfortunate turn
struck a match and left me to burn
i can’t win no sense of success
i can’t win though i tried my best
you took an unfortunate turn
and left me to burn

you wrote a flammable note
punctuated with fire and smoke
i can’t stand on burning coal
i can't believe that was my role
you took an unfortunate turn
and left me to burn

something’s gone inside of me
deep deep down in side of me
feeling like a hollow shell
burned out by a fire from hell
fueled by the wind that turned
and left to burn

 

 

 

 

 

This Road

everything must pass
if it don’t crumble it will crash
over everything we hold
as we wander this old dirt road

i told you that it couldn’t last
couldn’t stop it was going too fast
far too fast to slow or go cold
and on we fall down hard hard road

did i hear a siren blow
someone’s coming we do not know
and blocks our path all black with crows
is this the end, this sorry road

you may have wealth
fistfuls of cash
drive a rolls
dress so flash
and wearing chains of solid gold

still you stumble down this hopeless road
still you fall out on this barren road
still your bones litter this fucking road, this fucking road

 

 

 

 

Forests of Eden

the forests of eden burn
reduced to matchsticks
and the dollar
and to powerful men
who rule the world
what's left
is black and twisted
and always will be
in the name of faith
what's left
are relics, the first stone
and the only sign reads
keep out